Wednesday, November 04, 2009

No Compilation for Old Men

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Compilation sickness is the name of a new malady that seems to have taken control of my life in the past 4 weeks. Trying to expand the paper on "Virtuality and Anticipation in Videograms of a Revolution," which I presented at the Visible Evidence Conference in august, into a dissertation chapter evaluating the film within the broader context of the compilation film and media tradition, I have indulged in a desperate research about video compilations. Desperate because nothing has been written about the topic and also, because I got seduced by the world of found-footage films along the way. OD'ing on the films of Peter Forgacs or Gianikian is apparently not helping my cause right now, as I have been staring at and rewriting the same 3 pages, containing mediocre statements about how interesting the coupling between The Fall of the Romanov Dynasty and VOR is, in the last 2 weeks. Sad really, as that is not even the point; however, I simply can't wrap my mind around what I am trying to say since my mind keeps wandering back to the good old safe waters of the analog film and home movies-based compdocs. Video, my friends, is no country for old men, by which I mean old fashioned academics, who are stuck in thinking and dreaming about celluloid. Now how to stop thinking about Wittgenstein Tractatus - "that's the Younger Jim" (to echo sheriff Ed Tom Bell's introductory voice-over in No Country for Old Men) - and go back to executing Ceaucescu...

Monday, November 02, 2009

Nouveau steampunk

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It's holiday season, once again, in the US. Halloween has just expired, thanksgiving is on the way, and countdown to christmas ads are already aired on Tv, reminding me that I should really make an effort to learn what holiday is on what date, now that I've been living in this country for 6 years. Well, at least this year, I genuinely considered dressing up for the first time, as Riese, the wanderer-hero of the new internet-based steampunk series. My lack of interest in mingling with people in order to display the costume took over, of course, and I spent the night passing out candy at my place with Christina and Jim instead. Still thinking of steampunking myself by getting goggles, capes, and clock-art accessories for daily wear though. I bet nobody would find the style anachronistic in Detroit.

Other than the usual misanthropy and occasional thoughts about eternal homelessness, things are going pretty good so far lately. The fairy tale house is dreamy (a friend of mine moved upstairs so now I have a cool neighbor too), the dissertation research is going extremely slow but is quite engaging, my academic life is drama free (the film program is growing so we have more visibility and respect in the department this year, I think), and I even found out that I don't have to teach composition in winter (I almost dropped out of school when they forced me to do that last spring!). Stars must be aligned. Now if only I could write more efficiently, since with this pace, I'll never finish the dissertation.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Good news

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Today, I found out that my paper titled "Reassembling the Nation: Iraq in Fragments and the Acoustics of Occupation" is accepted for publication in the special theme issue of the journal Studies in Documentary Film, dedicated to post-9/11 media. I am delighted of course, since I really enjoyed writing that piece, presenting it at the Glasgow conference (which turned out to be one of my best conference experiences), expanding it for the prospectus (worked pretty well), and revising it for publication. But also, I think I am finally figuring out how to do things efficiently in grad school: The last two pieces I presented at conferences have both been sent to journals and accepted, and I am getting comfortable with the "write a conference paper first and expand it into a publishable format later" system. Let's hope the same works on what I am writing on now too (an expanded version of what I presented at the Visible Evidence Conference in august).

Monday, October 19, 2009

Queen of Convenience

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Woke up earlier than usual this morning with Dziga tossing and turning next to me. I recently started allowing him to sleep with me, which is probably a big mistake but somehow I find his jumping on the bed in the middle of the night and pushing me to the side with all the might of his bear-like torso amusing, if not endearing. After a quick shower, I got back into bed and started listening to Kings of Convenience on itunes, while meandering through the net. KoC always reminds me of Lok, probably because he was the one that made me listen to the band first; but the song "Homesick" particularly made me think of him since the lyrics evoked our conversations about feeling placeless or lacking a sense of belonging in the strangely small and alienating academic world of this vast continent. Other than that, I don't feel especially homesick these days; in fact, the Bavarian-Tudor house is rather "heimlich" if you pardon my German. But I do feel like the queen of convenience, going through the routine I created every day without daring to imagine a life different, a life without procrastination, academic angst, and autumnal ennui.

Homesick

I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but I can't stop listening to the sound
of two soft voices blended in perfection
from the reels of this record that I found

every day there's a boy in the mirror
asking me
what are you doing here
finding all my previous motives
growing increasingly unclear

I travelled far and I burned all the bridges
I believed as SOON as I hit land
all the other
options held before me
WILL wither in the light of my plan

so I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but there's only one thing on my mind
searching boxes underneath the counter
on a chance that on a tape I'd find

a song for
someone who needs somewhere
to long for

homesick
cause I no longer know
what home is


* Image shows a restored portrait of the 14-year-old Mary Tudor.

Monday, September 28, 2009

First Day of Fall

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Today, as I took Dziga to his daily walks around my neighborhood, it felt unmistakably like the first day of fall with intermittent drizzling rain, cold weather, and a visible trail of autumn leaves on the sidewalks (the colors of which are amplified by the pumpkins placed in front of porches, in early preparation for the upcoming Halloween). The universe is trying to give me a little push in my academic endeavors, I think, since I had decided during the weekend to resume dissertation work this monday and needed a notable mark of transition. Though the swift seasonal change helped me shift attention to the awaiting task at hand (the hitherto deserted dissertation to be from here-on disserted), I had difficulty figuring out where to begin and coming up with an ingenious strategy all day. Ah well, it's always hard to get back on track once you give a break. Let's hope I can get a few pages written this week to set things in motion.

In the meantime, the house is looking better and better each day. Christina and I went on a short Ikea trip on saturday and found a nice and conveniently cheap couch in the returned items section. It is a little modern in style but blended in well with the rest of the living room once we put a few multi-colored pillows on it. With the couch in, the place feels super cozy now. I also found out that cable shows BBC world news everyday at 6:30 pm so I feel like living in a sanctuary, sitting in my old timey living room, watching tv and listening to the rain outside.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Fairy Tale Weekend

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Guess what? We got the dream house. The owner of the house, Cris, turned out to be a very friendly person and after an hour or so following our first meeting, she left a voicemail on my phone indicating that she chose Mike and me over the other applicant (who had almost the exact same qualifications as me: an instructor at one of the Michigan universities and, by an unbelievable coincidence, also a tenant of my former landlord, who seems to have lost all of his properties in foreclosure). So we moved in on thursday and quickly arranged whatever furniture we had to give the house a cozy look. I have to admit that although we don't have some of the key items (not having a couch makes a big difference), the place already looks very pleasant. Christina even calls it the fairy tale house and drops by every day to bring fancy decorative items (I seriously think she should start her own interior design company). Last night she came over with Courtney and brought an old armchair, an old timey looking mirror, a big vase with dried flowers in it, 2 gothic fantasy-horror fairy tale movies (The Company of Wolves and Snow White: A Tale of Horror) to match the theme of the house, and snacks so we could all relax in the living room and watch films together. I felt home for the first time in months! Anyway, here are a few pix from the Bavarian-Tudor fairy tale house:





Friday, September 11, 2009

Some like it Tudor

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This morning, after having convinced myself that it is impossible for me to find a nice house this late in the moving season, I wrote down the address of the only house for rent that seemed to match our criteria on craigslist and called Baby Mike to schedule a go-see around 7 pm. 20 years old, Mike is the youngest member of my friend circle; I met him through one of my best friends, Carole, who had him as a student in one of her classes and decided to take him under her wings after he highly impressed her with his writing a few semesters ago. We started calling him Baby Mike, as we do with most of our friends under 23, and the name somehow stuck. Anyway, I knew that Mike was looking for a place to live in Ferndale since the beginning of summer but had never considered him as a roommate until my latest housing crisis broke out. However, when Jane asked me to move out, he was pretty much the only person I could think of that needed a place that soon. Oh, and not to mention that he works at the Michigan Humane Society (a respectable animal shelter) and has helped me whenever I had questions about raising a puppy since the day I adopted Dziga; so when I apologetically warned him about Dziga's latest antics over the phone, he told me not to worry since he deals with much worse at the shelter every day.

Anyway, at around 7 pm, we went to see the house, whose only appealing feature was the vast back yard that seemed perfect for the dogs (Mike has an old shepherd mix that gets along with Dziga-bear). Considerably underwhelmed, we decided to drive around the neighborhood to see if there were any houses for rent by any chance. Of course, the west side of Woodward in Ferndale is much nicer than the east and people do not put their houses up for rent much. The only signs you see are sale notices that belong to realtors. That said, after driving around a couple of blocks, we suddenly noticed a hauntingly beautiful old house with a Tudor-like architecture for rent. Out of sheer curiosity (since the two story house looked too big and nice to be reasonably priced), we took the number and called the landlord on the spot. A talkative old lady answered the phone and immediately got into a long and detailed conversation, which must have lasted at least 20 minutes, with me. Her name was Marilyn, yes like Marilyn Monroe, but she was much more beautiful, at least considering that Monroe is dead. I am senile, she said, but I am sure I look much better than dead people. She told me that the house was built in the 20s and both the upper and lower flats were for rent so we could take the lower. The place has all hardwood floors, a dining room attached to the living room, a renovated kitchen with all kinds of new appliances (Do I like to cook? I said sometimes and she quickly noted that her niece was keen on putting in a microwave, a dishwasher, and new stuff for cooking), 2 bedrooms, a big garage, and a lovely backyard. She was delighted to hear that I own a bouvier since she had one that lived until the age of 14 once - when she got hers, there were only 500 Bouviers des Frandres in the entire country, you know -, so I didn't feel the need to elaborate on how much of a troublemaker Dziga is, assuming that she is well acquainted with the stubborn breed. Marilyn's niece, the actual owner of the house, owns a dog, who is about to have a hip surgery, too, a chow mix that allegedly looks like a lion, -We are dog people, she reiterated a few times -, so she doesn't think Chris the niece will have a problem with our furry companions. The conversation didn't sound like it was going to end but eventually, she told us to go around the back to see the yard and said she hoped we'd take the place. Mike and I walked around and after seeing the antiquated door with a mosaic glass panel, old style windows with fancy handles on them and the gorgeous backyard, we decided that we want the house even without seeing it. We peeked in from the windows and the floors looked recently finished and the walls freshly painted. I still don't know if all that can be real and we might actually get a chance to live in a house so special but once back home, I immediately called the niece and told her that we are interested. Being extremely excited, I sounded a little retarded, mumbling words and confirming my name as Sonia when she asked. I wish the owner was Marilyn so I could simply tell her that some like it Tudor; I am sure she'd understand and let us have the place without further questions but it's up to Chris now. Let's hope she calls back tomorrow and it's written in the stars and I can move into a house that is simply magical.